my big day

alhamdulillah sah.. :P

my (early) birthday

an early birthday gift! yayayayayayay! =]

HBD abang bajaj

it's amazing how you can get so far from where you've planned, and yet find it exactly where you needed to be. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Ardiandy Pradiptya Suryadi. Dare to live the life you have always dreamed. Go forward and make your dreams come true.

-Bandung, 20 Maret 2012-

behind the scene

last week we did our first photoshoot for you-know-what. :D

let me show you some pictures from behind the scene.
it also become your sneak-a-peek, right?

i wanna say thank you a big big bunch to the photographer, nanu, for taking all of the photos delightedly.
thank youuu nanuuuu... :)

my khitbah 05.11.11

for those who don't quite familiar with the word 'khitbah',
maybe you know it as 'lamaran' in indonesian.
engagement? maybe.
but my family don't wanna call it engagement.
because 'engagement' --with ring-- is very un-moslem culture *sorry, not racist, this is my family's opinion*
otherwise that night we replaced the ring with a bracelet
and only me who wear it, my bf of course doesn't.

the purpose of the khitbah it self, was to propose me by his parents.
and why was this occasion involved a lot of people, because
it's also the way to tell people that my dad's daughter, me,
had been proposed by someone, my bf,
so that someone else can't also propose me again.
that night, it indeed involved a lot of people,
beside my big family and his, there were also my friends and my neighbors.

in the beginning of the event,
i was seated at different room,
until i answered the proposal, i was allowed to came out.
well, i had the most awkward moment
when the microphone was given to me and i had to answer.
i tell you, it was indeed awkward. haha.

alhamdulillah the event went well.
usually, in this kind of event, they decide the date of wedding day.
but in my situation, we did it just for formality, haha
yeah you know that nowadays, the date is decided by when the venue of the wedding can be booked.

hopefully, everything will be going well until the big day..!! :)
amin..
insya allah..

with my besties, before i came out

*ni dia artisnya keluar haha*

his mom put a bracelet on my wrist

he and his parents

me and my parents ...and the flash from camera made my face looks so much oily :(

with my bros

* i did my make up by myself ;)

this man

the truth is
i hide because i want somebody to find me
i walk away to see somebody will follow
i cry to see somebody will wipe away the tears
and i let my heart get broken to see
somebody will come and fix it.

and then you come
and i see love in your eyes.

the way you look
the way you laugh
the way you love with all you have
there's nothing about you that don't do something for me.

then i shed tears
tears of love and joy
the tears of hope of our future
the tears of the memories of the past
and the tears of the beauty of the present.

i carry your heart
i carry it in my heart.

ardian[di]ni

malam itu

malam itu malam minggu memang.

malam itu ia datang ke rumahku.

malam itu ia meminta izin pada ibuku untuk mengajakku makan di luar.

dan di sanalah,

setelah makan selesai tiba-tiba ia mengeluarkan setangkai bunga

dan menggenggam tanganku.

terlihat kegugupan di wajahnya yang menggelitikku.

tawaku kutahan.

dan di sanalah

ia mengatakkannya.

ia memintaku.

dan yang bisa kulakukan hanyalah

hanya menutup mukaku

dan meledakkan tawaku yang tertahan dari tadi.

terbahak-bahak.

mukanya memerah.

maaaaaffff.

dan tak bisa kujawab.

saat pulang aku masih terkekeh.

saat di rumah aku masih terkekeh.

saat beranjak tidur aku masih terkekeh.

maaaaaffff.

hanya saja kamu,

seseorang yang hampir setiap hari kutemui.

seseorang yang hampir setiap hari duduk satu ruangan denganku.

seseorang yang hampir setiap hari bercanda dan berselisih paham dengan kita semua.

tak pernah terlintas di kepalaku.

maaaaaffff.

dan sembilan hari dari malam itu

akhirnya aku bisa menjawabnya.

di saat yang tidak tepat.

dengan mendengarkan kata hatiku.

bukan isi kepalaku.

ini berat untukku.

tapi aku berusaha jujur pada diri sendiri.

aku sadar dia bukan seseorang yang aku impikan.

tapi aku ingin memberi kesempatan itu pada dia.

pada kami.

yang tak sempurna.

dia meyakinkanku.

dan sekarang,

di sini lah kami.

here we are, ja.

never thought it would turn like this.

now wherever your path is,

i will follow your lead.

thank you for the patience, kindness, and dedication you've been giving me.

thank you.

and i thank god for this.